He Died for Me. I Live for Him

The title is actually what is written on one of my rings. I got this ring last year after God asked me to jump back into the paramedic field. My heart is to follow God, because He honestly is the one who has stood by me in times that "only" He could stand by me. I wanted to buy this ring before I jumped back on as a paramedic, so that when I faced crazy calls, that I could look down at this ring and remember what God has done for me and that with Him I could do this.

I bought a new ring recently with the bonus money I got for working one entire year at my company. What an accomplishment for me. So many times I wanted to run and quit because it was too hard, or too scary, or even too painful. God asked me to stick it out with Him, and you know what I am still there. At least for a little time longer. The ring I bought this time is very simple, is small with a little gold heart, and the gold heart has an even tinier cross lined in it.

The first ring has helped me to remember that I need to keep going with God even if it means sacrificing comfort, or if it is terrifying, or whatever God asks me to do, I need to do because I live for Him, He died for me. This other ring is simple and just perdy. :-) It is such a reminder to me that God really does fulfill His promises. It is to remind me that I am never alone, that I am loved so dearly, and that in all I have gone through my God was either walking beside me or caring me when I could not walk on my own. I know these rings have no power"such as in Lord of the Rings" They are just reminders, of such sweet things of God, so that I don't forget when my days get a little crazy.

My journey is nearly just beginning. My hearts desire when all else is not blocking the view, is for God. There are so many times that the enemy steps in, or my own sinful desires try to block out the goodness and love God has for me. Recently I have been able to see so much more clearly about this love God has for me and I can tell you, I want to do whatever it takes to know and believe more sincerely that There is a living, tangible God who Loves me Unconditionally. How much different would my life be if I knew this love with not just my head but also with my whole heart? I can honestly say, My Mask would come down and I could totally relax not fearing rejection or loneliness at times. I would be able to trust God in other people that if I were needing those "hands and feet" from my christian sisters I would actually ask and allow God to love me through them. I would not constantly worry about my future because I would trust God and His love for me and know He has plans to give me a hope and a future. My past would no longer define me. I would be a Daughter of The King and in humility and knowing where My daddy brought me out of would serve others; love others out of the love my daddy has so freely poured out on me. I would know How Beautiful I truly Am because My daddy spent time forming me and making me just how He desired me to look. I would take care of myself. I would make sure this temple of God would be a place worthy of my daddy to dwell. I would have Joy and in that have strength to face each day. The list goes on. I long and desire so much to allow God to do Whatever it Takes to get me to a place where my heart opens and trusts Him enough to show me His love and for me to believe it with my entire heart, mind, and soul.

Walking in His Grace and Mercy ~sarah dudek~